Let there be no D for Depression

I had plans to write Depression for the day four of A to Z Challenge and yesterday the news came of a 20 year old boy committing suicide at Mumbai. The way he live streamed his suicide on Facebook was scary. I just felt that i could reverse back the time clock and talk to him, save him and let us be around people who are struggling with depression.

Sadness is something we all experience. It is a normal reaction to difficult times in life and usually passes with a little time. When a person has depression, it interferes with daily life and normal functioning. It can cause pain for both the person with depression and those who care about him or her. Doctors call this condition “depressive disorder,” or “clinical depression.” It is a real illness. It is not a sign of a person’s weakness or a character flaw. You can’t “snap out of” clinical depression. Most people who experience depression

So i decided to give up cinematic portrayal of depression and write a poem on Depression instead, here “He” refers to depression and before you hit back at me, it’s gender neutral.

Through this poem i want just to portray how depression feels like after having talked to many people who are facing it. It’s in a girl’s narrative just because i am a girl ,

“I was lonely, sad and bitterly lost

Even weed wasn’t helping

I stalked my ex on Facebook

Went through all the chats

Something was still sinking

When one day I saw this cutie

staring at me

He waved, I said Hi

He came over and smiled

I ordered a latte and he a black coffee

I thought he seemed genuinely nice

He came over with me to my room

And I said dude that was quick

But who cares when you are

Lonely, sad and bitterly lost

He refused to leave and it felt good

It was a change when leaving was a way

I thought a little fooling around is okay

There is a thing called No strings attached

And we will be on our way

I was happy, light and smiling bright

I needed no one and was giving a tough fight

No one knew he was there

So I locked my room with him in it

And made love with promises to keep

It’s been days, months and more than a year

He is still sitting at the edge of my chair

Sarcastically smiling and whispering in my ears

“Dare you go anywhere, You are mine”

I wish someone could see him and throw him out

I feel a loose a cell every day, is he eating me out

He ties me up and forces himself upon me

I try to scream, he cups my lips

And when bruises come up, he calls it a love bite

I try to run, he pulls me back and slaps me hard

I thought he loved my long tresses

I cut them short to shoo him away

And when I turned, he was right there

Staring it me and I shivered with fear

He thrust me hard that day

As if trying to say “dare you even tried your way”

I request, I plead, I beg him to leave

He just laughs scaring the shit out of me

He keeps me awake all night, every night

Says “I will hug you” and crushes me from inside

If you are reading please help me

Talk to me, hold me, please pull me back

He is taking me to a dark tunnel

Never ever to return back”

Help people around dealing with depression, they may not say it but they need it.

I am participating in A to Z Challenge with http://www.a-to-zchallenge.com/