
I had plans to write Depression for the day four of A to Z Challenge and yesterday the news came of a 20 year old boy committing suicide at Mumbai. The way he live streamed his suicide on Facebook was scary. I just felt that i could reverse back the time clock and talk to him, save him and let us be around people who are struggling with depression.
Sadness is something we all experience. It is a normal reaction to difficult times in life and usually passes with a little time. When a person has depression, it interferes with daily life and normal functioning. It can cause pain for both the person with depression and those who care about him or her. Doctors call this condition “depressive disorder,” or “clinical depression.” It is a real illness. It is not a sign of a person’s weakness or a character flaw. You can’t “snap out of” clinical depression. Most people who experience depression
So i decided to give up cinematic portrayal of depression and write a poem on Depression instead, here “He” refers to depression and before you hit back at me, it’s gender neutral.
Through this poem i want just to portray how depression feels like after having talked to many people who are facing it. It’s in a girl’s narrative just because i am a girl ,
“I was lonely, sad and bitterly lost
Even weed wasn’t helping
I stalked my ex on Facebook
Went through all the chats
Something was still sinking
When one day I saw this cutie
staring at me
He waved, I said Hi
He came over and smiled
I ordered a latte and he a black coffee
I thought he seemed genuinely nice
He came over with me to my room
And I said dude that was quick
But who cares when you are
Lonely, sad and bitterly lost
He refused to leave and it felt good
It was a change when leaving was a way
I thought a little fooling around is okay
There is a thing called No strings attached
And we will be on our way
I was happy, light and smiling bright
I needed no one and was giving a tough fight
No one knew he was there
So I locked my room with him in it
And made love with promises to keep
It’s been days, months and more than a year
He is still sitting at the edge of my chair
Sarcastically smiling and whispering in my ears
“Dare you go anywhere, You are mine”
I wish someone could see him and throw him out
I feel a loose a cell every day, is he eating me out
He ties me up and forces himself upon me
I try to scream, he cups my lips
And when bruises come up, he calls it a love bite
I try to run, he pulls me back and slaps me hard
I thought he loved my long tresses
I cut them short to shoo him away
And when I turned, he was right there
Staring it me and I shivered with fear
He thrust me hard that day
As if trying to say “dare you even tried your way”
I request, I plead, I beg him to leave
He just laughs scaring the shit out of me
He keeps me awake all night, every night
Says “I will hug you” and crushes me from inside
If you are reading please help me
Talk to me, hold me, please pull me back
He is taking me to a dark tunnel
Never ever to return back”
Help people around dealing with depression, they may not say it but they need it.

I am participating in A to Z Challenge with http://www.a-to-zchallenge.com/
Powerful poem! Though I suffered from depression awhile back I was able to pull myself out without interventions, but I am sure this is not the case. Hope every person who is in the depths of it, receives some help. My cousin has recently completed an artistic series on Mental Health which you can access here
Also @NamySaysSo D for Doula:A hand to hold on your most important day
Thanks Namratha for sharing the series.
Thank You Namratha for sharing the series.